im back from malaysia

actually im back on sundae

bt din get e chance to blog..

so updating nw:)

hahasx

hmmx..pic pic pic!

actually toking abt e trip

i m kinda angry abt it.

cox my mother gave me excuses for nt going to kelong

saeing dat she is afraid of tusnami(is dat e correct spelling?!)

and afraid dat she will meet terriost

is dat e real reason??

i doubt so kay!

all she wan is to gamble gamble gamble!!

i m reali unhappy abt it..

bt i din reali express it out..

i went for dat trip cox i tot it was a great time for my family to gather and enjoy

bt..

i hate genting

i hate e fact dat they love gambling

i hate seeing dem wasting this kind of money when dey don reali have it

toking abt money

i reali feel devastated in getting into a private

i mean like 18 marks

come on man!!

its nt a mark to go into a private

bt wad can i do?!

its expensive!

i feel like helping to fork out these sum of money

bt how to?

when i haf to forcus on my studies

if this road gonna be hard..i promise to hang on

even how much i don like this course

if one dae i reali found out tis is not i wan

if my views for this course have change

if my attitude towards this have change

i promise to hang on

cox i reali don wan my mother to worrie for me

i know this is my life dey have to rites to choose for me

bt

i reali don bare to see my mother worried

she is no longer dat young to have e strength to scold me & worried for me

hmmsx.

during e trip..my brother got a jacket..

actually i saw a t-shirt i like!!.its long sleves and those beach wear kind

i love it..

its jux off 20 by a bit..

its not dat ex can!

bt my mum jux don wan

she sae this and dat

and i can see her unwillingness!

okie fine

i pretend to like change my view and not wanting e shirt animore

den i was like okie wit it actually

bt when my bro wanted e jacket

my mother like immdiately sae okie or smthing

is this bias?

i m not sure

i don wan to know

cox this will make me feel sad

to her i like e one spending money more

bt hello!!

how long i nv went for shopping!!

i love clothes

i love design

thats my hobby

bt i cannot pursuit it

cox i don wan to like spent their money

cox i know hw hard she had to earn dat much money

sometime i even din ask for anithing

bt my bro kept asking for money when he already had splendid of money

hmmsx.

sae dat you will help me get a new phone?

when?

next year?!

haisx!

i reali din ask for more

its been years i using this phone

i din complain

i din nagged!

hmmx..i m feeling so emotional nw..

perhaps..

i shuld like continue acting blur?

hmmsx.

happy stuff!
acutally i did tried to forget those envy jealousy stuff
and enjoy
actually genting is boring bt den i feel e present of family gathering

laughters!

love it(minus those angry irritating part!)

we played pool..shooting..eat and eat

i was shock i shoot dat gd..

maybe i m potential shooter..watch out !!

hahasx..

this is my first time taking couch!.cool!.kinda fun..

during e trip..on e bus..tons of tots kept coming into my mind

miss him was one of it! i miss him reali lots la..i pray for e time to past faster so i could get to see him.hahasx

its jux a day and yet i misses him dat much..

hahasx.

oh gosh.

i cannot live without him.

hmmsx.

okie wads going through my mind dat time was this

: i donne if this is called love ..am i too young to talk abt love?

bt i know i misses him dat much and wishes to be wit him as long as i could..and i tot abt it.i nid not know wad will our future be..i jux wanna be happy now and treasure the time wit him.i have decided to trust him fully.wad may e consequences be i donnoe bt i will bear all e consequences cox i choose it.i nid him..i misses him..when e tot of us breaking will just hurt me dat much..is this love?..i donnoe..to adults it may be childish or jux puppy love..bt i wan to be wit this guy as long as possible months years forever.hhmsx.dots.all i know is i wan treasure..

wad and where will tml bring us to i donnoe..and will we last till tml..i donnoe..bt it doesn't matter animore cox i know i wan be wit him happily until e dae we cannot be tgt.:)

todae meet up wit my dearie girlfriends!..hahas..

chatty us!.hahasx..noise pollution

bt dats us

i love dat!

we are friends for life!!

i will try my best to stay in contact no matter how busy may i be or you girls may be..

i bought small gif for my girlfriends and him

okie..

time for those pics to be..up!

left at 6.15

me and mummy!

on e wae!

i accidentally bump onto him

pool!